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hebbycakesI get back to school only to find out that I failed my Sociology paper. I got 27 out of 100. This was the paper I thought I'd get good on. But I failed it horribly.
I didn't have any foot notes or end notes. I didn't know how to do them. I never ask for help because I can't. I don't know what to ask for help with and I'm too shy. I only found one site that had all the info I needed, but he said there are tons of sites.
It was his fault I changed my subject. I should have just stuck with Spousal Violence and how it affects women, not Spousal Violence in History. Why did I have to change it!? He told me to, so I thought it was a good idea. I didn't get any books...
I don't know how to do research papers. Plain and simple. And he spent about 10 minutes telling me how I did it wrong. I'm sorry I'm such a screw up. I know that. But telling me over and over how I got 0 just makes me feel like shit. I probably lost the papers he wants me to find. And then he told me to look at someone's good paper so I can see how things are done.
Everything he said basically sounded like "What I tell those who get 0 is they'll never be able to pass!". I already knew that. I wanted to stay an extra year in High School so I could catch up and get all my credits, but I was told that I'd like University. Whether I'd like it or not doesn't matter! I have to get through High School, and as things stand, I won't just fail French, I'll also fail both Math and Sociology. I don't understand what we're doing in Math at all, I didn't work on my Math Project all break and I only have 2 weeks left to work on that. Plus, I have to somehow pass French.
I can't do it. I just can't. I look like I can, but I can't. My depression is really pounding on me and I can't get out of it. No matter how many drugs I take, it won't matter. I'm completely screwed up.
Now I have to go see all of my teachers every free minute for extra help, but I never know what to ask for and I just break into tears. And 18 year old like me that breaks into tears whenever there's a challenge. It's so pathetic.
If I start crying in Math, then that's it. I just can't do it anymore. I know this is a hectic time, but for me, it's Apocolypse. I'm just sinking deeper and deeper and no one can help me because I don't let them. I don't know how to.
I wish mom or dad were home... I need someone's shoulder to cry on. I don't want them telling me what I did wrong. I know that. I just want comfort.
Or is that too much to ask for a slacker?
I didn't have any foot notes or end notes. I didn't know how to do them. I never ask for help because I can't. I don't know what to ask for help with and I'm too shy. I only found one site that had all the info I needed, but he said there are tons of sites.
It was his fault I changed my subject. I should have just stuck with Spousal Violence and how it affects women, not Spousal Violence in History. Why did I have to change it!? He told me to, so I thought it was a good idea. I didn't get any books...
I don't know how to do research papers. Plain and simple. And he spent about 10 minutes telling me how I did it wrong. I'm sorry I'm such a screw up. I know that. But telling me over and over how I got 0 just makes me feel like shit. I probably lost the papers he wants me to find. And then he told me to look at someone's good paper so I can see how things are done.
Everything he said basically sounded like "What I tell those who get 0 is they'll never be able to pass!". I already knew that. I wanted to stay an extra year in High School so I could catch up and get all my credits, but I was told that I'd like University. Whether I'd like it or not doesn't matter! I have to get through High School, and as things stand, I won't just fail French, I'll also fail both Math and Sociology. I don't understand what we're doing in Math at all, I didn't work on my Math Project all break and I only have 2 weeks left to work on that. Plus, I have to somehow pass French.
I can't do it. I just can't. I look like I can, but I can't. My depression is really pounding on me and I can't get out of it. No matter how many drugs I take, it won't matter. I'm completely screwed up.
Now I have to go see all of my teachers every free minute for extra help, but I never know what to ask for and I just break into tears. And 18 year old like me that breaks into tears whenever there's a challenge. It's so pathetic.
If I start crying in Math, then that's it. I just can't do it anymore. I know this is a hectic time, but for me, it's Apocolypse. I'm just sinking deeper and deeper and no one can help me because I don't let them. I don't know how to.
I wish mom or dad were home... I need someone's shoulder to cry on. I don't want them telling me what I did wrong. I know that. I just want comfort.
Or is that too much to ask for a slacker?
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Date: 2007-01-09 01:13 am (UTC)Thank you. :')