nrrrgh

[hebbycakes]

I am so sick of being sick. x_x I need to stop being so scared but... With the swine flu going around, and how it can so easily kill a person, I can't help being scared. Shannon was well and suddenly got really ill and died. I read her entries, and how she felt. I probably sound so selfish, but I really am scared of the same thing happening to me.

My temperature must be through the roof right now. And I can't sleep at all. If I close my eyes, I get insanely dizzy.

I dont' know what to do. I just want to be well. I guess all this food is making me worse. I've yet to vomit, but even that could be soon.

I just want to be better. I wish there was a way for this to just go away and for me to be well again. I'm so scared.

I know you told me that everyone feels like they're gonna die when they're ill, but what if it really happens? I should stop saying this stuff, but I can't help it. I don't want every night to be like this... Me being terrified. I'm burning up. uagh