Music and Meme

[hebbycakes]

I play Shadow the Hedgehog at dear mun a lot, and my fave Sonic and Rouge muns both came to talk to me. Because of the recent events... Sonic-mun gave me this.

I'm still broken up, who wouldn't be. My sister accidentally rolled her eyes when I brought up Shannon again yesterday, and that really hurt me. This isn't just some fad-- our friend died. I guess that's why she apologized after doing it. I told her I need to talk to someone about it or I will lose it. I've never had this happen before.

When my grandfather died, I was too young and ignorant to really get it. I'm not like that anymore. I agree with what Lynny said, I keep expecting to see a post from Shannon. I'm afraid to go to sleep at night because I might have dreams of her, and they'll confuse me into thinking she's still alive.

I pray every night now, to try and send messages to her via God. It may sound weird, but it is one of the things keeping me strong, along with the strength from all of you. It still feels like Shannon's just moved somewhere without internet. I don't want to live in denial, but it hurts way too much to just accept it and move on. That sounds too insensitive.

I'm sorry for anyone on my f-list unrelated to all of this, but this may be my subject for the next few months or more. I can't just let it go. Everything else in life seems so trivial now. I don't even know if I can focus on schoolwork. And I have to, but... Mmmf.

I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT...

I love all of you. I had an ice cream bar yesterday. it has never hurt to eat ice cream like that before. For the first time it didn't hurt my teeth, but... yeah.

I love you guys.

Comments

[prof-ryoki.livejournal.com]

Believe me when I tell you that I understand.

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

*hugs so tight* I've an idea for a community... It's a letters community to Shannon. We write letters about our day, about anything at all that we wanna tell Shannon, and post them there. I need to do something like this... Letters are the only way I keep myself sane when I'm sad. I have to believe they'll be read, and that's what keeps me going.

[yuujisou.livejournal.com]

I don't think I could be as brave if I were in your situation. But if we can keep you strong, we'll be there.

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks. :)

[yuujisou.livejournal.com]

♥

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

♥ ♥

[lunarwhirl.livejournal.com]

I'm here. Especially if you need me.

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

I know I'm not on AIM nearly as much as I should be, but MSN's become my main messenger service again. It's the one I use to get into group chats with and such.

But I'd love to talk to you again at any point. Even if I don't feel like Rping right now...

[lunarwhirl.livejournal.com]

/hugs

There is no "should be" as far as I'm concerned, bb. And can you ping me with your MSN? /has one too

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

Oh, what is your MSN?

[lunarwhirl.livejournal.com]

psychotic_requiem (AT) hotmail dot com.

[EVERYTHING I SAY IS TL;DR ^^;;;]

[twitchytwitch.livejournal.com]

Nobody has the right to complain. This is your journal and your outlet. You will post what you feel is important and what interests you. If others dislike it, well, then, that's their problem, not yours.

If this event has shaken you as much as it seems, then, of course you'll write about it and I for one will continue to read those posts. They're interesting and I never even knew her.

It certainly isn't the same, but just recently, I dreamt of my cat. My cat who was practically the only friend I had for my preteen and early teenage years.
She's been gone for years, yet I still dream about her. It might be confusing and heartbreaking to wake up and realize she's truely gone, but they're also somewhat comforting.

I hope that your dreams can be less confusing and more comforting in time.

And please do try to focus on your studies! I don't think your friend would want you to do badly because of her death. ^^;; Good luck and I hope I haven't been offensive.

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I'm trying to focus on my studies, I really am. It's just so hard. I know she wouldn't want me to do badly because of this, but just keep thinking about her.

[mako-pretty.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight* It's not a fad at all, it's not trivial, and it's not something that anyone of us will be getting over. And you're totally within your rights to mourn.

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

*snugs tightly* I'm going to buy ice cream tonight.

[mako-pretty.livejournal.com]

I'm getting some Friday, when John gets paid. And I'm going to sit in front of the comp, and eat it while roleplaying.

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

Misu, do you have skype? and a mic?

[mako-pretty.livejournal.com]

No, should I?

[kaiba-katt.livejournal.com]

Just wondering. I want to talk on skype with people, that's all.

[mako-pretty.livejournal.com]

I'll look in to it, then.