I play Shadow the Hedgehog at dear mun a lot, and my fave Sonic and Rouge muns both came to talk to me. Because of the recent events... Sonic-mun gave me this.
I'm still broken up, who wouldn't be. My sister accidentally rolled her eyes when I brought up Shannon again yesterday, and that really hurt me. This isn't just some fad-- our friend died. I guess that's why she apologized after doing it. I told her I need to talk to someone about it or I will lose it. I've never had this happen before.
When my grandfather died, I was too young and ignorant to really get it. I'm not like that anymore. I agree with what Lynny said, I keep expecting to see a post from Shannon. I'm afraid to go to sleep at night because I might have dreams of her, and they'll confuse me into thinking she's still alive.
I pray every night now, to try and send messages to her via God. It may sound weird, but it is one of the things keeping me strong, along with the strength from all of you. It still feels like Shannon's just moved somewhere without internet. I don't want to live in denial, but it hurts way too much to just accept it and move on. That sounds too insensitive.
I'm sorry for anyone on my f-list unrelated to all of this, but this may be my subject for the next few months or more. I can't just let it go. Everything else in life seems so trivial now. I don't even know if I can focus on schoolwork. And I have to, but... Mmmf.I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT...
I love all of you. I had an ice cream bar yesterday. it has never hurt to eat ice cream like that before. For the first time it didn't hurt my teeth, but... yeah.
I love you guys.